(okay, okay, very high expectations)
Ask anyone who knows me. I am constantly striving to be the very best at whatever I am attempting. Which also translates to having high expectations of those around me.
This can be problematic.
For example, when I was in high school and not getting very good grades (flunking history and english), and there were talks of “Gosh, I hope she graduates.” I decided I would not only graduate, but also have multiple majors (History, Sociology, Business), pay for college in cash and get my MBA. Yes, I have an MBA, and I have zero in student loans.
Most recently, last year when I sat down to write and publish a book, I didn’t just write one…. I wrote seven.
With four more currently taunting me from my desk. Do I feel as though I have met my goal of ‘writing a book’?
Why you ask?
Because although I have written seven books, I still don’t feel as though ‘I am done’, I don’t feel as though they are long enough, or descriptive enough, or have enough information, or a better story or, or, or ‘they are good enough’.
There… I said it,
I don’t feel like I am doing it good enough.
I don’t feel as though I am doing ‘LIFE’ good enough.
All of these accomplishments I have had in my life really don’t mean much to me, because, I look back and think:
“Gosh, I really could have done that better.”
My logical brain KNOWS this.
But, my emotions and feelings… they could give a Rat’s Ass.
THIS IS WHY I AM *SOMEWHAT* OBSESSED WITH STRESS MANAGEMENT
It is why I have bucked against the norm, why I have done things my own way. The expectations of ‘Normal’ drive me crazy with stress and anxiety.
This is also why I look into alternative therapies,
*’How to ‘retrain your brain’ workshops = Meditation, Law of Attraction, Esoteric Magic and Empowerment techniques
*Different nutritional programs = Vegitarian, Paleo, and Raw food diets
*Movement and Exercise programs = Swimming, Lifting, Dancing and Martial Arts techniques.
… and you guessed it, I will be writing about all of it. So you can benefit too.
Today’s tip: Don’t over-commit – Avoid scheduling things back to back or fit too much into one day.